starving the caveman day 4

Day 4

Been a bit of an odd one today. 

The caveman was constant but muted. My craving/withdrawal was like a low-key buzz in the background. Always there but mostly ignorable. 

When I got home I had supper then went to vote (not satisfied because I don’t like any of the candidates so I went for the best of a bad bunch). My beautiful alien wife introduced me to a game on Steam. Bloody thing is addictive! I ended up so absorbed that I totally “forgot” that I was trying to quit smoking. I only remembered when after a few hours I suddenly thought “haven’t had a fag in ages, I think I’ll go outside for a smo…. oh. Yeah. Right. I’m quitting”

I noticed this the last time I quitted. I’ll not crave and forget I’m quitting then suddenly think that it’s time for a cigarette. 

Oh well. I’m still doing well so that’s all good. Time for bed!

1 thought on “starving the caveman day 4”

  1. What game on Steam are you referring too?
    My wife was cleaning out our Meditation Room and stumbled across a tin with mini-chocolate bars from last Christmas.
    In order to stay away from that stuff, I tell her we’re not even allowed to buy sweets.
    To remove the temptation, I promptly devoured every one of them. Afterwards, my brain reminded me, “There goes any progress of tonight’s workout.”

    Then another thought of a little cloaked figure erasing and replacing numbers on a chalkboard with the words above it, “DAYS WITHOUT INCIDENT” with 00.

    In the words of HK-47 from Star Wars the Old Republic: “Justification: The interview went horribly for the career that would have taken you out of your dead end job.”

    But, there are no justifications. I was, in your words–feeding myself literally and–metaphorically–the caveman..

    Time to begin that endless climb upwards yet again.


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